For the ones who love, wait, and stay.
3PM Fear speaks to anyone who’s lived in the shadow of addiction — the partners, parents, children, and friends who carry the invisible weight of someone else’s battle.
It’s a book for:
- Those supporting a loved one through addiction, who need to know they’re not alone.
- Those in recovery, searching for a reminder of what love looks like from the other side.
- Anyone healing from codependency, grief, or the exhaustion of loving someone you can’t fix.
It’s not just a memoir — it’s a mirror for every person who’s quietly held a family together while their own heart was breaking.
When love becomes survival.
For years, Lucinda Panarello lived with what she called the 3PM Fear — a ritual of waiting, bracing, and hoping to recognise the man who walked through the door each day. This memoir captures the hidden pain of loving an addict: the codependence born of love, the loneliness of keeping up appearances, and the desperate courage it takes to hold it all together for everyone else.
Told with honesty and compassion, 3PM Fear shines a light on the unspoken side of addiction — not the addict, but the one who loves them.
A glimpse inside 3PM Fear
"Once, 3PM controlled every aspect of my
life.
It was not circled on a calendar. It was not a
moment I anticipated. But it arrived, day after day, it came like clockwork.
And with it, an ache I had no words for."
Watch the Story Behind 3PM Fear
A conversation between Lucinda and Carmelo on love, recovery, and the unseen toll of addiction. This short film captures the honesty behind the book — a quiet glimpse into what it means to love someone who’s fighting to survive.
What Readers Are Saying
“Raw, brave, and deeply human. 3PM Fear made me feel seen in ways I didn’t expect.”
— Reader testimonial
“This book gave me the language for something I’d lived through but never spoken aloud.”
— Partner of an addict
“It’s not just a story of addiction — it’s a story of endurance, grace, and survival.”
— Counsellor, NSW
“Every page feels like someone finally said the thing I’ve been too afraid to admit.”
— Anonymous reader
Two voices. One story.
Lucinda Panarello is a professional makeup artist and digital creator whose creative eye brings depth and emotion to every project. Through 3PM Fear, she offers a deeply personal look into the experience of loving someone through addiction — written with honesty, vulnerability, and grace.
Carmelo Panarello writes from lived experience, offering a rare and honest insight into recovery and self-discovery. His voice brings empathy and hope to those navigating the path back from addiction, both for themselves and for those they love.
Together, Lucinda and Carmelo open a window into both sides of addiction — the one who fights to survive it, and the one who stays.
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Available now
Own 3PM Fear in print or digital format. Printed on demand through Lulu, each copy is sustainably produced and beautifully finished.
Paperback – $29.99 AUD
eBook – $20 AUD
- Cream interior paper, matte finish, perfect bound
- Distributed via Lulu, Amazon, Apple Books, Barnes & Noble, and more
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